Monday, April 4, 2011

my 40 year journey to faith...

For context, I'm a control freak. I like things to be, let's just say, a certain way.(I know, I'm probably the only person you know that is like this...)

That fact makes this post even more challenging. I guarantee you that I have erased and rewritten this post at least a dozen times. And it still won't be perfect.

Oh, and let's add to that fact by saying, I also don't like failing or losing. Check that...I hate failing or losing.

There you go. Context.

My life has been filled with opportunity after opportunity to flex my faith muscles and show how awesome I am at believing what is so unbelievable. And time and time again, I struggle to hold on to that elusive thing called faith. And it certainly doesn't help that I like controlling things...a lot of things.

But a few years ago when I discovered charity: water and was captured by Scott Harrison and his desire to provide clean drinking water to those who need it most, I wanted to be part of the game. I wanted to help him win. An opportunity to flex...

And when they launched a website that put well building into the hands of everyday people like me, I was stoked. I just needed big enough event to raise funds. I don't skydive. I don't run marathons. I just get keep getting older...

Well, what's bigger than turning 40?

But here's the thing. I'm insanely nervous about all this. It costs, on average, about $5,000 to build a well in a developing nation. Um, yes...$5,000.

Why so nervous? Because I don't think I'll reach the goal. I won't win...but that's the thing. This isn't about me.

My journey to faith has taught me a lot of things. But one of the most important things that it has taught me is that control is a selfish illusion. It's revealed more about my lack of faith than my trust in it. So this is my leap. This is my step into the Jordan.

The story of charity: water - The 2009 September Campaign Trailer from charity: water on Vimeo.

I can't do this alone. I need help. They need help.

So ultimately this post is about faith. Something I often lose my grip on. It is in times like this where control leaves my hands and gets placed squarely into His.

All they need is water...just clean water. Be His hands and feet. Please give.

1 comment:

  1. Awesomeness. Love that you are doing this, but not surprised. :) That's just how you all roll. Praying the funds in with you guys!! Happy Birthday, Jeff!