although we've been delayed in bringing our kids home, I realize this is a battle. God speaks very clearly through Paul in Ephesians 6 that we need to be ready for battle. The enemy doesn't like adoption. He doesn't like it when we follow God's plan. He doesn't like the idea of children who are orphaned, entering into a loving home where they will see and feel the love of Jesus.
And let me tell you, the enemy has been doing his best to discourage and beat me up these last few weeks.
But I realized this morning, if I let him do this, I'm letting him win.
I've got way more fight in me than I've been letting on. I mean, I've got the Spirit of the Living God residing in me. Why have I decided to give up? When did THAT happen? Of course, it wasn't a conscious effort. It just happened.
I've been a ball of tears and mush for the last week. It hasn't been good for anyone... My awesome kids... My amazing husband (who puts up with way more than he should)... and for sweet Bedilu and Meron.
I KNOW who wins this battle.
So along with all of the encouraging words from our friends (most of whom are a part of this amazing adoption community that we've never even met in person) and the Word of God, I've decided I'm NOT GIVING UP!
As I read in Ephesians 6 this morning I was reminded... this is spiritual battle of epic proportions.
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord's people.
I don't know what God's timing is in getting our kids home. I am not sure why these delays are happening. But I DO know the ONE who holds our children in the palm of His hand.
He is Sovereign. He is Just. He is HOLY.
and He promised us that He wouldn't forget the orphan and the widow. I'm trusting in Him. I'm putting on my full armor to fight off the devil's attacks. With God on my side, I have no one to fear.
I'm ready to fight. This is about being obedient. It's about giving God the glory that He deserves. It's about trusting Him unconditionally with my life and the lives of my family.
He is worth it. My husband and children (all 6 of them) are worth it.