Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Tonight.


Tonight was one of those nights. It doesn't happen all the time, I mean how could it with a family of eight always on the go? Rushing from here to there and everywhere in between. We are constantly in motion, even if we're not. But tonight it happened. We played "duck duck goose". And "simon says". We read a story and cuddled in bed. We did "this little piggy" and prayed. 

I spent a little extra time tonight with each of my kids tonight...pouring into their little spirits. Hugging them a little tighter. What was different than other nights? I'm not really sure but tonight I saw each of them through the Father's eyes and it floored me. They are amazing.

It's so easy to get caught up in the daily to do list or the enormity of raising six kids. Yet, tonight I had grace. I pray for it daily, but tonight I decided to tap into it. 

As I was sitting in bed with Bedilu tonight telling him that he has THE CUTEST feet EVER ( really! You must look at them sometime), and that I love his laughter and his spunk, I felt the Lord nudge me in remembering... He's only been home for 15 months. and what a privilege it is to be his mom. I mean to really love him unconditionally. And I felt it. I ADORE that boy. Like way down deep in the recesses of my heart, deep. As my eyes filled with tears I found myself so forever humbled and grateful that The Lord would choose us. He chose us to be his family.

I moved on to our next child and the next. Filling up each of their tanks with affirmation and attention. I couldn't help but feel the love spilling over. Each one is so individually different and yet so amazingly incredible.

I am floored at how it's even possible to love my kids this much. And I was again given a glimpse into how much my FATHER must love me.

I am thankful for nights like tonight where the laughter fills our home, drowning out any stress or feelings of, " I can't do this again tomorrow". It really is true that His mercies are new every morning. I'm just glad that I got to see it first hand tonight. 

Although the "days are long... but the years are short" as my dad always likes to remind me, my time with our kids tonight will be etched on my heart as one of my favorite memories.

"Thank you God, for the reminder. And thanks for your redeeming light in our family."

Adoption has forever changed us. I never want to go back to the way things were. I'm thankful tonight for these six incredible children in our care.